Capturing Opportunities...

So, I have a story about opportunities. 
The story is that I have passed up many many wonderful opportunities that have been handed to me. 
I could have gone to art school, had I asked my parents for help for the supplies. 
I could have studied with a wonderful yoga teacher, Tias Little, had I stayed in Santa Fe, NM. 
I could have gotten through Acupuncture school a lot quicker, had a stayed in Santa Fe. 
A lot of these stories are ridden with self-doubt and an inability to ask for help. 
Because of this, I have accepted a lot more opportunities in my 30's, even if they didn't pan out.. yet. 
In Neurosculpting ®, we work with out stories in our Meditations, some are true, some are not.  As you delve deeper into meditation, you can see stories you may have believed or influenced your choices... that weren't necessarily true. 
I have come to a juncture in my life, I've had a child, set up a business, am married for the second time, I have a yoga studio I go to, two stepkids, a car... you catch my drift. 
BUT, I feel a sense of stagnation. There is somewhat of a lull...
As I was meditating this morning, I realized that some opportunities, are inside of you! 
Right now.. I have some time to rest, be with my family, meditate, create..
This is such a gift, though it feels hard, after pushing so hard till now. School and work and a baby and moving houses, and offices...
What now? 
The golden opportunity is now inside of me, and I can't force one on the outside. In my, almost 40 years, I have learned, when you are really trying to push and force from the outside, the only way is in, that is where the gift, the treasure, the grown, being uncomfortable and more unfolding lies. What story can we create about those pivotal moments? 
It is not an OUTSIDE accomplishment, but one that comes from within.